Child-like Faith
Our oldest, Rylee, is twenty-one months older than Wes. She was only thirteen months old when we found out we were pregnant with Wes. Throughout my whole pregnancy people often asked, “Are you talking to Rylee about having a baby brother? Does she understand what’s happen.” My quick response was always, “No way! There is no way she understands at such a young age.”
Now looking back, I think I was very wrong. As Ry has gotten older, we have come to realize she is the most empathetic little girl. On my worst days, she knows I need that extra hug or laugh without me saying a thing. Shortly after Wes’ passing I often held back the tears to make it through the day, but she still knew. I will have silent tears streaming down my face from a song or message at church, and here comes Ry requesting a big hug or cuddle. She is so in tune with those she is close to, it honestly floors me. This is definitely a gift given to her by God knowing how much her and her family would go through at such a young age.
Last week we were headed up to church for a moms bible study. Ry requested, “bubba’s song.” We often play the songs played at her bubba’s memorial. We hold on to the little pieces that we can to help her know who he was, what he fought through and the legacy he has left. In the middle of us singing “Chain Break” by Zach Williams, Ry yells “MOMMM.” I immediately pause the song, this usually means she has something ‘super important’ to say that often times leaves me silently chuckling.
This time, it was different
The conversation went as follows:
Ry: “Momma, I love bubba’s song. Can we see him again?”
Me: “We will get to see bubba again in heaven, where he will have perfect skin and not be sick anymore.”
Ry: “Well I really love when you sing bubba’s song to me before bed time. When we get there, can you sing me and bubba his songs? I think he would love that.”
Me: with tears streaming down my face amongst a huge smile imaging what that day will be like, “of course sweet girl, we can all sing bubba’s songs together once we are all in heaven”
Upon arriving to church, Ry was belting a Disney song and I took the time to sit. What beautiful images danced through my head. Ry, a child with such huge faith at such a young age. Does she ask about her bubba and tell us she wants to be with him? Yes! However, she also is so quick to talk about seeing him again one day in heaven. She is quick to remind me that our time on earth is so short compared to eternity. Although many of us ache for the ones who have gone before us, how great is our God to prepare a place for us where we can all meet again in perfection.
Always hold on to that hope! On our saddest days, God is still holding us. He is still reminding us that this is not our forever home. Have child like faith, stick to the basics. One day we will all be together again.
